Despair, Hopelessness, and Faith

I awakened at about 1:00 a.m. this morning weeping and sobbing with the woman in my dream as if I was that woman who loved her husband as much as I love mine.  Something had happened that left the couple destitute, living in a homeless shelter.  Day after day people came in with their families and received help while this young woman and her husband were looked at with pity and disdain and shaking heads.  There was no help offered, no encouragement.  I write this as if it is me and my husband.

Tom went out every day, with his backpack, looking for work, and finding nothing.  Then one day he came back, discouraged, defeated, feeling like a failure because he couldn’t provide for me.  He said I would be better off without him.  “I’m leaving and I won’t be back.”  Then he turned and walked away.

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Great sobs wracked my body, my insides quivering out of place as I curled into a ball on the floor.  “No!  Please come back.  We’ll get through this.  Don’t leave me.”  He kept walking.  “God, please give him a job and bring him back, or else kill me.  Let me die if I have to lose him.”  People passed me and shook their heads, and no one cared.

I woke up sobbing, just as some woman out there is doing, with my whole body shaking and my insides quivering.  I weep as I write this because I know in my heart that there is at least one woman who is in a shelter somewhere going through this crushing soul agony.  I weep for her because God allowed me to feel what she’s feeling.  I turned to my sleeping husband and laid my arm across his chest, my tears soaking his T-shirt, body trembling.  He laid his arm across my own and held me there even as he slept.

To the woman who is going through this torture of the soul:  God sees you.  He hears you.  He loves you.  If you put your faith in Him and believe that He desires the very best for you, then tell Him “Thank You” for dying on the cross for your sins, and ask Him to save you from this soul torment.  Ask Him to surround your husband with people who will encourage him and help him, and share his burden of despair, people who will tell him about a Savior named Jesus, who died on the cross for his sins, a Savior who has great plans for him and for you, if at least one of you will just trust Him.

John 14:13–And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.

John 14:14–If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.

This means that your request has to line up with God’s will.  We get to know God’s will by reading His word, the Authorized King James Bible.  Jeremiah 29:11-14 tells us that God created us with a plan and purpose for our lives.  Attending Sunday School and church on a regular basis, and following along in your Bible as the teacher teaches and the pastor preaches will help you understand the Bible as you grow in your faith.  As you seek to know God’s will, He will reveal it to you.  God honors faithfulness and obedience.  We all fall short because sometimes we just want to do what we want.  We are human.  But God is gracious and merciful, and will gently pull you back in line.  Don’t give up.  You are worth more to Him than even one little sparrow.

Psalm 84:3– Yea, the sparrow hath found an house, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young, even thine altars, O LORD of hosts, my King, and my God.

Psalm 102:7– I watch, and am as a sparrow alone upon the house top.

I’m praying for you, even though I don’t know you.  I saw you in my dream.